One can search throughout the entire life in the whole universe for someone who is more deserving of love and affection than you yourself are, and that one never be found: undoubtedly You Yourself is much more deserving love and affection in the entire planet!
After health, upgrade to the self, to be free from the ignorance, sufferings. It has many ways, it is necessary to overcome one’s own ignorance, and then a simple decision will be found in any situation.